Kawiria: Friday Feels – 1
Because we Thank God It's Friday!
In our young and wild days, my friend started this TGIF thing that we would do every Friday (duh!) and to be honest it was very liberating, because it was a channel to express all the feels you had that week and basically all the shenanigans you were up to. But more so, thinking about your future and just speaking into the things that you want so bad. Some are of course not to mentioned, but at least it gives you a chance to think about it and even if you say them under your breath, that’s okay too.
I want to bring back that tradition, because I felt like it made me more aware of my feelings and more intentional about doing things I noted down. Plus I’ve recruited a friend who will do this segment with me 🙂
So here goes,
Do you ever think of what you struggle with every other day? This week I asked myself that question, because it just occurred to me that I am in this rut or rather cycle where I wake up, go to work, go home then hang out with my family or have some alone time which mostly consists of binging on TV shows or reading a book; sometimes I meet with friends, sometimes I go for random or planned events; then I go to bed and have a good night’s sleep and wake up in the morning, repeat.
So the one thing I struggle with on a daily, is whether I am doing enough, for myself and for others. And if I am not, what do I need to do for me to feel like I am doing enough? I don’t have an answer to that question yet, because I am still wondering (lol) and trying to figure out the ‘then what?’ bit.
Like I have a void. It’s just a now feeling I believe, so it’s nothing to worry.
I’m excited about
My Mwanaume Ni Effort bomber jacket. It’s so cold, it’s just what I needed to keep warm when just chilling. Discovered I don’t have enough warm clad.
I’m looking forward to
A furniture upgrade. I want a new couch so bad! But also, if only I could get money to generally furnish the house that would be so swell! Also, doing something about our small balcony garden. We’re on the top most floor and that place is too windy. So the flowers we had planted were either blown away or they dried out. It’s just an eyesore now. But who remembers to water plants anyway?
I’m listening to
This week I’m feeling these two jams sana.
The Bold Type and Being Mary Jane whose episodes are being released so slowly. Also, Queen Sugar Season 2 is out. My friend just told me the movie ‘Everything Everything’. I’ve really been waiting for it to be available in the interwebs after I saw the trailer.
Dreams in a Time of War by Ngugi Wa Thiong’o
A nice helping of McFry’s chicken and chips!
I’m wishing/hoping for
Some stamps on my very new passport, with good memories attached to each one of them. I really wasted my previous passport…lol. In short, I need to travel around some more and just explore the world and cultures outside of my usual.
I’m praying for
A peaceful election so that we can all just move on with our lives outside of politics. It’s a bit too much and a complete snore-fest.
Quote I’m living by
You will never know how much you can accomplish until you try. Never stop trying. Your miracle will come in undefined moments.